Day One of Momalom’s Five for Five
For most of my life I have been thrown around by change.
My mom likes to tell the story about how I handled a family move when I was two years old. I stared at the packing boxes for the entire night before we moved. She identified early that I was not comfortable with change.
She was right. I never really liked change, but I grew to know it well, and I became rather good at dealing with it.
I learned to navigate a world where dads change from sober to drunk. I adjusted to life with a single mom. I watched my body change (thankfully short-term) from athletic to practically immobile. I eventually accepted the change from high school to college, despite the uncomfortable challenge it was for me. I rode the wave of change into my marriage and into early motherhood. I changed houses six times. And then the roll-over car accident… changed everything.
Change was what happened TO me. I had found a way to float through life, to take stock of the tumult happening around me, and then pride myself on my abilities to adjust. Riding the wave of change is what I learned to do.
I also learned that it is easier to get stuck that way, than it is to take charge of change for yourself.
If what you know is to bat things out of the air, to defend yourself against assault, or to run quickly in a new direction… it is more comfortable to keep doing exactly what you’ve always done.
The most important thing that I have learned though is that the tools to navigate change will only take you so far.
Life is better lived if YOU are the change-maker.
When I felt as though I were out of options to navigate change…I decided to change my life myself.
With three kids and a husband who travels far away from us for weeks at a time, the change seemed impossible…outlandish even. So I started with the only changes I could make.
I changed my internal script. I started to regularly ask myself, what positive thought could I orchestrate when negativity and frustration were the only things I really wanted to think? It didn’t happen overnight, and it is still not perfectly achieved, but I feel like it’s getting easier. (I thank Dr. Martin Seligman and his book Authentic Happiness)
Change still happens in our house. My husband is literally on the road today…changing from telecommuter to out-of-state worker.
Our 12-year-old son is quickly changing into a hormonal pre-teen and our girls are changing at both the molecular and the visible level too.
I cannot control that change is part of life, but I have come to believe that I have control to change my attitude, my approach, my perspective, and NO ONE else can do that but me.
I lean heavily (and regularly) on a prayer that has helped me for my entire life, and I offer it up to you here:
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.
The courage to change the things I can.
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Here’s to being change-makers!!
To learn more about Meagan or her current choosing to grow project, you can visit her website: www.meaganfrank.com.
Copyright 2012 Meagan Frank Choosing to Grow