This has been a big year in our house. A title-changing year, in fact. I abandoned my title as coach and I took up the title of author.
Part of me is glad I didn’t know how hard that was going to be… I might not have done it. The momentum of my life, my job, our income was comfortable and the routine, although insane, was predictable.
Nothing is predictable any more.
Part of the reason is that, although I’m getting closer to how I want to define myself as a writer, I’m definitely not there yet. I am working to find a way to use my writing in a way to best contribute to this family, to make a difference in the world at large and to satisfy the deeply-rooted desires of my heart.
In a fantasy world, I would be able to write all day, my children would play happily in the background as they soaked up the intellectual, positively emotional and physical world around them. My husband would be readily available for banter and support and I would be bringing in enough money to feed, clothe and house the members of our family.
That fantasy world will never exist, so I am left wondering how a writer can successfully contribute to the needs of a young, growing family. The reality is that our children need a caretaker, chaffeur, chef, scheduler and emotional sounding board right now, and I’ve changed my professional title so that I can better care for them.
I have re-prioritized my time to put our children ahead of a job that pays consistent money, and I have to believe I’ve made the right choice.
I had the opportunity, in the last few weeks, to meet, in person, a woman I have come to admire greatly through our online blogging connection. (as an aside, she is just as incredible in person!) She and I were talking about how hard it is to be fully ourselves when we are consistently pulled by the demands of the children we mother.
So here I sit…with the roles I am, and the way I feel they should be prioritized.
I am a wife.
I am a mother.
I am a writer.
I told Big Sprout the other day that it is so important to discover who you are. So many people do a whole lot of stuff that has nothing to do with who they are. I believe it is God’s design that we do who we are.
So, I’ve found who I am, and my next challenge is to do life in a way that celebrates that discovery while providing an opportunity for everyone else in my house to do the same thing.
I am open to doing more…just as long as I can still find time to do, and be, who I am.
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